Samsara

Whether
tis
better...










Aye,
there's
the rub.

2nd Chances

It's Sunday, 6pm.

The sun is a bleached white light, slanting sideways through the blinds and I am listening to Saul Williams, "The Inevitable Rise and Liberation of Niggy Tardust!", while going through some old computer files.

For those not familiar with Saul Williams, he is an NY Slam Poet Champ, and his album is available online. I bought it last year, unheard, based on a glowing review -but- after listening once or twice shelved it for what I deemed to be overuse of the "N" word.

Then, more recently, I ended up listening again via Ipod while ascending the mountain and it's kinda grown on me, since.

The arrangements are interesting and though they can be a bit heavy handed with Trent Reznor-isms (who produced the album) there is a vibrancy and sometimes angry energy that pushes things along.

And the lyrics?

Lenny Bruce's "Nigger, Wop, Kike, Spic" routine comes to mind, (one song, especially) but that's just the tip of the iceberg.

Let's just say Saul Williams is a dude who likes to play with perceptions and words are his little mirrors of misdirection. Or maybe he just like's effing with people's heads, but it's not always easy to tell where the bottom line is.

The album cover, for instance, is a cross between Tupac and Disney. We see a black man's bare chest, adorned with jewelry, but he's this holding cute little kitten - and it's wearing an eye-patch - a cute little gangsta' kitty. Hunh?

And then there's the title song, "Niggy Tardust," an obvious David Bowie reference, but with no other connection, musical or otherwise, that I can identify. And I've looked, believe me. Anyway...

During the title song, just before the refrain, white people are advised, not to call Niggy, "Niggy," but Curtis.

Followed by the refrain:

When I say "Niggy"
You say nothin'...

Niggy!
(No response)
Niggy!
(No reponse)

When I say Niggy,
You say nothin':

Niggy
(No response)
Niggy
NOTHING! - Shutup.

Which could sound a little in-your-face but also comes off as kind of humorous.

But why take my word for it? Listen for yourself:

Think you got it all the first time? Maybe. But you should note the line:

"Threshold king of everything, a comical absurdist"

Which puts an interesting spin on things.

And the bottom line?

It's all you, man.

Oh yeah, and the above is a self-portrait I came across yesterday while going through some stuff. This was supposed to be about that, but I got a little side tracked.

Cockroach Palaver

I dreamt the night before last I was a human-cockroach hybrid, which sounds a bit disturbing, I know, but was actually kind of cool.

I could fly, for instance. And stay underwater for long periods of time. Plus I had a certain amount of plasticity so if I had to escape a building via the plumbing I could.

This came in handy because people were after me.

I was a super-powered chitin-covered spy.

"Like Naked Lunch," M said. Or it could've been Matt Danley. We were out doing up the town on a Friday night.

"You mean, Metamorphosis," I replied. Though, truth be known, it reminded me of a book I'd read some months previous, Gregor Samsa, which had been a spin-off of Kafka's Metomorphosis.

"Yeah, but the Cockroaches were spies in Naked Lunch," someone said.

Good point.

Matt Danley then informed us that along with tarantulas,* cockroaches are the only animal theorized to be able to survive on Saturn.** Something about breathing concentrated oxygen and going dormant during extreme cold.

"But what would they have to eat?" he pondered.

"Each other," replied M.

*"Those big hairy spiders", is what he actually said.
**Or was it Mars?
***Thanks to Wikipedia for the above photo