As if all my choices have led up to this moment and there’s no going back.
Remember that scene in “No Country for Old Men” when Javier Bardem flips a coin to decide the fate of his victim?
He says something like that, how the coin is only the instrument of - not chance - but fate, of inevitability. How previous choices have led to that moment, as surely as a mathematical equation produces its answer.
This may sound cryptic or even cynical, but there is an upside.
If I am running out of time, out of choices, what moment could be more important than